Fear is a funny thing, isn’t it? One bad experience can change your attitude from excitement tinged with fear to predominately fear. I’m not always sure what I’m afraid of. Failure. Success. Change. Of working too hard. Of not working hard enough.
But I’m also afraid of regret. Afraid that no matter how much the idea of going out of my comfort zone terrifies me, if I stand pat, it’ll be even worse.
Also: it’s not fun to admit to yourself that you could be happier, and you deserve to be happier. Because before those two things can happen, you have to do some scary shit. Easier to tell yourself you’re OK. Even if you’re not. But once the truth tries to break out of your subconscious, it’s harder to stuff it back in. Sometimes it seems like what makes a person content one day can totally be wrong for them the next. It’s like you wake up and realize a phase of your life is over. Or should be.
I’m being very general, perhaps. That’s mostly intentional. So before I get too in depth and brooding, I wanted to post some songs that give me hope and make me want to be….good, I guess. The format the videos take below may vary wildly throughout the night. I may tinker with em and such.
I have the chorus of this as an away message.
From one of my favorite bands.
Some of you may recognize this one.
Saving perhaps the most purely incandescent for last.
What songs make you want to be good?